I apologize for the silence this past week. My computer hard drive went caput on me and with it, I lost about 80% of what I've been working on this year. After taking the computer in to see what all could be recovered, I ended up with about 20% - the rest are corrupted files.
Fortunately one of the files of my novel didn't get corrupted, but the ones with all the edits I've been doing - is no more. Meaning, I have to start over. That has been hard to take. Also gone - 3 steampunk short stories, my steampunk novella, and several files with research and information that I'd wanted to utilize for my steampunk novel series. By some miracle the steampunk zombie novel I started is also there.
This has set me back. It devastated me to see all my hard work just vanish. My confidence isn't where I need it to be. Because I'm stubborn and don't know how to give up, I know that I need to get started (again) on editing my novel. It's just that my headspace isn't in the best place. Which leads me to being very grateful for the next round of ROW80 starting. I am going to need to reach out to the wonderful people and ask for some cheering on and some much needed (but gentle) pushing to get me over this unexpected loss.
After the last round, which in many ways I now don't have much to show for since almost all of what I did no longer exists, I learned that I expected far too much for myself in terms of goals. There are things to take into consideration as I start with new beginnings. A new season - autumn - my favorite. I love to bake and cook new foods. I'm learning to cook to the seasons and that takes time and food preparation. Somewhere this will need to fit into my schedule. Also in October is my birthday, my wedding anniversary, Halloween, and of course the holidays are looming.
Typically this is the season where I am most productive. But even knowing that my goals need to be realistic. So here is what I've come up with:
On the personal side:
1) Work out for no less than 30 minutes 4 to 5 times a week
2) Eat healthy
3) Get adequate sleep
4) Unplug most evenings
On the writing side:
1) Update my blog more often
2) Push on and restart the edits of my novel
3) Write and submit 2 short stories
4) Follow, cheer on, and get to know more of my fellow ROW80ers and writing campaigners
5) Add another 20,000 words onto my steampunk zombie novel
The last one is a hoped for bonus. I may come up short or I may go beyond that number, but either way I'm happy with any progress.
I look forward to the twice weekly check-ins and will work hard to get myself into a more positive, hopeful headspace.