Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Sometimes Creativity Doesn't Happen on a Page
I'm sorry that I did. At the time it was my way of saving face.
Now, I realize that ROW80 isn't about always hitting the goals, always being "on", or absolute perfection. But Sunday I forgot all of that. It seemed easier to crawl into bed and fantasize that come Wednesday I'll have a post full of promise.
Well, it's Wednesday and my post isn't full of promise. Instead of saving face I'll just be real. I haven't had a great week. I could analyze it, but I won't. I could blame the weather, outside forces, or poor sleep - but those are entities that always pop up in my life. Time is valuable. My career as a writer is valuable, but so are other aspects of my life. Am I a writer? Yes. Do I want my novel completed and polished? Yes. Do I want an agent? Yes. But there are other parts of my life that are valuable as well.
Sometimes that means unplugging and putting focus on the home, the family, and myself. Sometimes that means not writing, not stepping into a fictional character's life, and it also means giving myself permission to not perform.
When that need arises, I turn my creativity elsewhere. I have a passion for decorating. I enjoy baking. When my life feels messy, I like my home to be clean and uncluttered. It brings me a sense of calm. After the Christmas decorations, the house looks plain - uninspired - fresh flowers in several rooms made all the difference.
So while the following things weren't on my originial goal list, I did accomplish: working out, baking cookies, rennovating my kitchen, organizing the spice cupboard, decluttering the bedroom, and finding just the right centerpiece for the dinner table on pasta night. And all of that brought me intense pleasure.
As a result, I'm feeling balanced and focused. I'm just itching to mess around in the life of a character or two. I have ideas demanding to be released, even if it's in the form of a quick paragraph or two. The desired goal today is to do some writing, some editing, visit some fellow ROW80 bloggers, and channel creativity in whatever form feels right. And above all - being real.
Sometimes my creativity doesn't happen on a page.